It’s freaking 3:40 am and I can’t sleep and I am hungry and I am, again as usual, too lazy too get up- or to do something for that matter. Anyway, I’ve been looking at this blog that is owned by someone I should not be thinking of ‘cause the mere thought of the existence of that person still pisses me off and— ugh! Whatever. Okay, back to this blog, I saw its username, i guess? And was like, Oh please. Really. You really like people to read how desperate you are? Come on! I dunno, but if I were you, I won’t pick that username. It’s pretty obvious what it meant. I know I’m being mean, but you started it actually. So I’m just saying what my mind is telling me. If you are reading this, sorry I’m not actually sorry. :)
It’s been a while since I’ve wrote silly stuffs here. Lol. Mga kadramahan ko nga naman sa buhay. Anyway, I’m gonna blog something about my experiences here but not now. I’m freaking lazy and I need to get up ‘cause we are going somewhere. Ugh. I love my bed so much that I really don’t want us to part. Hahahaha.
Do you ever have something that you hate but love at the same time? You know what? I do.
What I hate but love about myself is that I’m veeeeerrrryyy clingy, to my friends at most. I’m not even exaggerating. They say that being too clingy is bad trait to keep. Look at me now. I just can’t get over the fact that I am leaving my friends to have a new life in another country.
Reading this friends? It’s your fault I’m such a clingy person and a cry baby. Lol. Just kidding. It isn’t your fault that you’ve treated me like a family, like your very own baby sister. Hihi. And you know what? I’m very thankful that I’ve met and got to know each one of you. Even if we shared happy or sad events, I am very blessed to be a part of those amazing time with you all. I love each one of you.
This would be my last night on this country. I don’t feel excited at all. I can pretend to be happy but deep inside I’m not. However, even if I feel worse, I know that the people I’m leaving would feel worst. I would go to this other place, start a new life, and experience new things, but them? They would continue to live on their lives… without me…
Though I promised my bestfriend that I would come back.
Ugh. This is what I get for being too clingy. I’m being emotional. Gawd. Anyway, that’s all. We’re traveling right now and I wanna sleep.
This would be our last selfie together until the day I come back, I guess.
Nalulungkot ako. Naiiyak. Feeling ko mas nalulungkot pa ako kesa sa nagiging excited sa pag-alis ko. Though for the record, hindi ako umiyak na parang baby ngayon. Maybe a little tears, but that’s just it. However, that little tears I’ve shed doesn’t show how terrible the sadness I’ve felt and still feeling now.
I’ll be back. I made a promise eh. After a year? After 2 years? After 5 years? I don’t know. As long as I know someone’s waiting for me to come home, I WILL.